Blue

Today was a good day. Lunch out with a friend, coffee & quiche in Barnes & Noble, talking about her trip to Europe! Work was work but manageable & I actually left somewhat on-time. Did some homework & research for school.

I have a feeling tomorrow will be awful. Or not. Sometimes I just don't care anymore, which is actually probably healthy.

Somewhere out there is a blue dog....

Green

Some days I hate my job, a bit like today. Luckily I've been actively living my life around other things, not just my job, so that's been fantastic & working out well.

Today we finally rearranged some furniture in the bedroom. Feels weird and different but good too. Also started book Spark on creativity. Also started another book called Kingdom of the Golden Dragon!

Here's to wishing & hoping for luck and prosperity.

Color of the day - green, for growth.

Good

I spent 8 hours plus talking/training someone today. My throat hurt & I am glad I'm not a teacher as a profession. Today was a good day. What color, not sure. Initially I thought red. So there. A pretty red day. A lucky & good color in Asian culture.

Anyway I hope my message & training all went through, and I'm hoping for a peaceful & uneventful week. Go big red!

Chocolate

Color of the day, chocolate. There comes a time in every girl's life, about once a month, where chocolate turns into medicine. That was this weekend. I also took iron supplements & overall took it easy. I don't have a sweet tooth, except about this time o month.

Went to church today. Haven't gone in ages, and it was actually nice & inspiring - rare and good. The sermon had sports references, talked about staying power, was about taking timeout to reflect, re-strategize & avoid temptation. Pretty nice.

Got a good haircut and I found a Supercuts lady I like. Polite, quick & great cut. Then got ideas at Lowe's, lunch out, Target run for toiletries & chocolate, productive at home doing homework, nails and cooking. Plus tried to catch some Oscars coverage & dress reviews. Very productive day overall.

I think the chocolate gave me energy & the day felt oh so chocolatey sweet.

Black

Past 2 days, color feels black. They haven't been necessarily bad days. After all, I like the color black. My latest book "The Night Circus" which I loved, features black as one of it's main colors. I want & fell in love with black Scottish terriers after watching Lady & the Tramp as a kid - Jaque!

I think I've been feeling hopeless. I've been working overtime at my current job for 3 months plus now, and I feel like it's never going to get better. I'm left with so little time or energy for any real works of love or passion in my life. My job is sucking the life and soul out of my life. I never intended it to, but somehow it has. It's not anywhere near the industry I want to work in, but it is a job, it is experience, and I am not ungrateful, I just feel like I need a recalibration of my spirit and energy. I need some healthy outlets, activities & pursuits to keep my life afloat.

Some possible projects.
- House renovations - fixing up, growing a garden, painting, redoing the bathroom
- Artistic pursuits - painting, writing, reading, bag making, scarf & sock looming, quilts or fun with textiles
- Cultural - cooking Filipino food, learning French (from a small secret love of French culture & a wish to read "The Little Prince" in French), traveling, museums
- Shopping - clothes makeover, haircut & makeup refresh,
-Tech - Buying a digital photo frame or getting an iPad. The frame is to keep a work to remind me of life outside the gray cubicle walls and of important moments. Then I thought, why not an iPad that I can use as a frame and/or toy. Also I notice when I feel a void in myself I tend to want to buy tech and/or purses and stuff more. Which is why I'm trying to find more creative outlets to satisfy.
- Health - eating right, exercising and shedding all that extra weight I carry around. I need to let it go.
- Music & Dancing - because I forget to listen & to dance.
- Relationships - Have better relationship with God. Also keep in touch with friends. Attentive to family & pay more attention to husband.

Of course, day to day reality, go to work, exhaust self, go home, eat take out, veg in front of tv to unwind, maybe do some homework, self groom (minimal) before passing out in bed. Yup that's not a healthy schedule. Spend weekends diverting attention or recuperating from work. Sometimes have fun. More homework, and resting & eating out. Right now my life centers around my job. I've got to refocus.

There has to be more to life than that schedule, that center. I have to make more out of my life than that routine revolving around the job. I admit I'm a perfectionist, workaholic, eager to please & afraid to disappoint.

What is my true center? Need to revolve my life around that rather than what it is now.

A life well lived is art. I want my life to be a frickin masterpiece. Full of color and variety, spice, spirit but most of all beauty - true beauty.

So here's to making my life a work of art rather than just work. Must find my true center & revolve my real life around that. It all starts with black. And I'm back in black.

Deep Blue

Today was deep blue. It was serious and good, a really good deep blue color. I had a nice lunch outside with coworkers & friends. Had a drama reduced day, even. Overall good.

Also Elvis blue beanie bear can be found at Charlie Brown stop on Pearblossom highway.

Room with a view

With great power, responsibility & work, comes a view. My messy yet often ignored view from my desk. Such a shame I spend most of my time with my back towards it.

Color of the day, rainbow. Let's say stripes. Stripes for the entertaining story of our zebra head Picasso. Saw at antique store, made us laugh, went back for it, now Picasso is our beloved work of art on our wall. His story made a bunch of friends & coworkers laugh too. Gift that keeps on giving.

Colors today ranged from red for stress & craziness, to green for good and in the end a happy mellow yellow. Maybe bit of black or gray for Ash Wednesday.

Yellow, the day ends with a happy warm & sunny yellow. Hope more days and moments are like this.