Feeling like an Asshole

New thing today, feeling like a total asshole at a Bridal Shower. It's not a new thing feeling like an asshole, but this was really obnoxious.

I get forgetful and last minute, so when I had some free time earlier this week I decided to be productive, buy wedding & shower gifts, along with some bags to go with the gifts. I was exhausted when I got home and realized one of the gift bags was missing. So instead of driving back to Target to get a new one, I decided to use a cute green Kate Spade bag that was the same cute green color that my gift was. I also asked one of the bridesmaids if I thought the bride would mind I used a random different bag, like a bright green Kate Spade bag and she said it was fine.

Then at the shower, usually I see bags of different colors. Instead they were all white, so mine stuck out. Second, everyone thought I got her something Kate Spade cuz she does have wedding stuff, but no. Instead they waited to open it last *fuck, and it was just a bright green water filter thing she had on her Target registry. The color matched the bag, but not the brand or shine of something Kate Spade.

So now I just feel like a total asshole. Worst thing about it is I should have known better. Also maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but it feels like a big deal. I kept apologizing to the bride and explaining my actions to different people, but I still felt like a total total ass hat and asshole. Ugh :(

So yes. You are judged by the outside and I hate it. Even though I feel and know it's really what's on the inside that matters. I just feel like an ass, and I can't shake it. Venting to the internet. Ugh.